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[09 22 09] Photo taken under abandon tracks between Western and Levitt on Milwaukee ave chicago IL right next aldi. The design is from a pilsen Artist : Ray Noland which he sells prints and other products with the same design as the photo above. i have encountered this image in many locations i ride by everyday as well as on a T-shirt of a person i know. just think what it would be like if i saw this one day as a tattoo that someone got to remember chicago instead of getting the all to famous chicago flag tattoo. SEPT MONTH OF MOVIES Ect. Watched </lj-embed>  </lj-embed> to watch 2 / Bones

a small self-portrait series [09 20 09] In these two Self-portraits they show hidden messages to me of what they mean for instance my weakness and mistakes even if in the photograph themselves don't show off all of them just by looking at them Im reminded of them all. 3 / Bones

[09 19 09] ( North Ave Beach Photos ) Bones

[09 19 09] 6 rolls of film developed and scanned... 4 / Bones

[08 27 09] this twists my brain .Im wrapped up in my thoughts. my cheeks taste like the ocean at least once a day. more then half the hours of the days of the weeks i feel this pressure against my body like then air is forcing me down. but I'm mistaken the air for these weighted down thoughts that i cant seem to explain to myself anymore. I have always thought i could handle beginning alone most of the days but it just seems to be harder to keep on telling myself its alright. its been raining for the past couple of days,so i decide to make a playlist to go along with it and not live the apartment in pilsen that Im staying at for the next month. this is what i have so far with the playlist: other truths- do make say think Indoor swimming at the space station- Eluvium New paths to helicon (pt2)-Mogwai Marie floating over the backyard- Eels Instrumental- The Microphones sud i eyrum- sigur ros A with living- do make say think The island of children's children- Mum your hand in mine(with strings)-Expolsions in the sky We say goodbye to ourselves-Eluvium Twenty two fourteen-The album leaf Hooray hooray hooray-Do make say think Dusk a peach in the orchard- eels light at the end of the tunnel- Cloud cult saeglopur- sigur ros New paths to helicon (pt. 1)-mogwai auberge le mouton noir- Do make say think Lover's split- Broken social scene Untitled 3 -sigur ros so long lonesome(eluvium mix)-Explosions in the sky summer- Mogwai med blodnasir- sigur ros montanita- ratatat Traveling through a sea- grouper halfasleep- Okay snow and lights-explosions in the sky staralfur-sigur ros fredericia- do make say think reflection in the angels- castanets untitled 4-sigur ros we've all gone to sleep- grouper look into the air- explosions in the sky sun against my eyes- colleen prelude for time feelers- eluvium outer inner & secret- do make say think i believe in you vicotry- this will destroy you untitled 1- sigur ros heavy water id rather be sleeping- grouper the birth and death of the day (jesu mix)- Explosions in the sky f--- ked up kid- Broken social scene 13 angels standing guard ' round the side of my bed- A silver mt. zion time stops- explosions in the sky 2 / Bones

[08 12 09] how my life never seems to amaze me anymore, Im done with my first week of surfing on some friends couches and i have to say all have been pretty good to me.I find myself drinking more then i do eating,begging for most of my money so i can buy food for the day.I have been planning a 200 mile bike ride to Bloomington Indiana for weeks now. The only thing that is holding me back from doing it is waiting for my deposit to my old place which i thought i was going to get a lot sooner. sadly if it turns out that i will not be revising it tell sept i will have to cancel the trip so i can start being responsible and go out looking for a job.One thing being homeless this time around has done is made me really enjoy my own company and has made it easier to get to know all types of people. If i could stay jobless for a little bit long i would. Bones

[04 30 09] I have been really depressed lately,eating less,sleeping more,spending the time i do not sleep working,with friends,or watching old sitcoms on tv late at night.I have this whole inside me. it was filled with this relaxed feeling then replaced with love,then when the love is gone.I have to try and find that relaxing place all over again.there is so much shit i need to get together,i feel its time i get myself out of chicago. 3 / Bones

[03 01 09] My life plays this game where all the good stuff happens at once,which leads the bad to happen all at once as well. Im so ready for the bad i want to be bad,tear up what is built all these feelings,I have nowhere to put them Bones

[02 02 09] floating naked blanket of heat sexual fustrations finger tips lips pressed against my neck sting fear eye patterns beautiful age spacing skin wrinkles scars there is a beauty in the way i lay in my bed naked at night now, feeling bare,beated,and weightless. I want to know every part of you Bones

[10 16 08] i showed my roommate mary's friends from grand rapids around chicago monday,went to the zoo, see mountain goats with them,then we road the bikes down lake shore to find a spot to eat our wine and cheese. we happened to come acrossed two others doing the same and envited them to join which lead to us becoming tomato and herb thifts.which lead to other things like skinny dipping in lake michigan. this weekend ill be heading to grand rapids to see what other things we get our self in to. 3 / Bones

[09 02 08] It feels like all the friends i once had a month ago are now gone, whats happening with my mother is making me feel like i need to change some part of my life.Be more open to letting people in,bust out and be myself.Im not to sure why I need to make the effort into geting hold of people to do things with.Im tired of taking all those steps.Its like these people are telling me things about our friendship or lack there of. so i guess my first change is to be open with others and to stop being the better friend all the time. Bones

[08 29 08] my mother as leukemia WHAT THE FUCKKKKKK!!! i head out tomorrow morning at 6 a.m to go back to indiana and visit just to be with her since she just found out and i haven't seen my family in 7 months. i was told today by my mother that she wants me to go to this party with her so she can show me off. I don't know what there is to show off but alrighty Im down. 1 / Bones

[08 01 08] this is pretty much all the kind of photos i have from this summer its been a awful photo season. im broke and starving. Bones

[06 10 08] what if i were to leave my meaningfull objects with a close friend and take off and travel places with just a little suitcase with a camera and useful things.put only mount eerie/the microphones and Sigur Ros on my mp3 player. 2 months and this is all i can think about. Bones

[05 26 08] [ music | shelby sifers ] In my head it all developed,then reality set its plan and disappointed.I shouldn't of took that jump from my head to reality. Bones

[04 27 08] im just waiting for the perfect day to take this baby on a lake shore cruse.take some photographs and have a picnic.I haven't been eating much lately with this new job i have been really short on money so i have been stuck with eating soup,rice,and peanut butter sandwiches.im once again back on my normal sleeping pattern its now 5:18 am. i need to get to know more people here. 1 / Bones

[03 10 08] lets exchange address and become pen pals anyone interested? 9 / Bones

[03 01 08] i havent written anything about the production of polaroid film yet for many reason i think im still not believing it myself also i just dont want to think about it to much it breaks my little heart.but i can not stop thinking about it i walk past the film every day at work and a tear comes down my face. this is even worse then a band breaking up. 2 / Bones

[02 26 08] this feeling is like eating ice cream if you eat it up to fast it hurts but the taste it amazing so it might be worth it. Bones

build me a big big house [02 20 08] [ music | jordan mason and the horse museum ] i have decided that im going to go out Thursday with my Canon AE-1 and take some film shots of this town before i leave it for the windy city Friday.I made sure i got all my packing done today. lets just hope i don't lose myself and seem overly excited. I'm leaving a town that is named after a elks beating organ but sounds more like a dieing drum.the inside is ulgy and cold but i have always found the outside eerie and beautiful.the perfect mixture of open land and tiny forests,i will forget the small amount of people i have meet here.I will soon leave my room that has been a safety net to experience conversations that I'm secretly afraid to have with people i barely know.I'm good 2 / Bones

[02 14 08] 1 / Bones

[02 08 08] two more weeks tell I'm living in Chicago,everything is coming together very well i have the money and transfer job so looks like this time ill be staying for good. 3 / Bones

[02 07 08] [ music | the microphones ] if you think your insane chances are your not. 3 / Bones

[01 28 08] its 11:30 in the morning i have yet to fall asleep but its coming hard at me now.i took a walk at 8 this morning my feet making the snow turn into slush.I had a lot of time to think which isnt anything new for me.i thought of how great it would be just to lay all my cards on the table stare them down and just walk away for it all.forget my hopes and dreams,lock myself in a cage and drift of into madness.tired of trying to find that right person im made out to be,i don't want to look at these people that think they are truly them self and are happy making others feel low and dirty like they have to hid every part of them selfs to fit the mold. i don't like to look at changing people in a whole because when i do i feel sorry for myself for not giving in and taking the social plunge just like every other stupid young artistic person.I have never wanted to make anything great so another would be in awe,i just wanted to try and make something that i could look back on and say i worked my ass off to make it look that way. i would be content if i could just stay in this room and only have to come out to get my monthly supply off fuel. 1 / Bones

[01 24 08] my life for the past couple of months have consist of living in my cluttered room not being able to sleep at night im becoming isolated and a little depressed but yet also not wanting much of a social life just someone to have a decent conversation with that doesn't involve eather of use complaining about things in their life.for the past 4 days i have had a migraine taken anything i can get my hands on to at less calm it down.at this point of my life im relaxed with myself and really don't give a shit about anything not even happiness. Bones

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